Monday, October 29, 2012
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Indian Summer
An amazingly stunning day in NYC, I love the Indian Summer type weather. What a difference this week is from the same a year earlier! I'm not too certain what the weather was then, but I know this day I am alone, but don't feel alone.... it's good to be alone sometimes.
This week last year I was just a few days away from being diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer, life was confusing, I new I was sick but couldn't get my Doctor to understand that........ This forced me to break off a 20+ year relationship with a man I knew somehow had my best interests at heart yet wasn't opening up his senses enough to see, to listen, to feel his patients deteriorating situation. After all I was always "The Strong One" right? ...right??
This year I am The Strong One in such a different way, this year I am strong for myself first. Being strong for myself first has made me substantially stronger for others. I am 1 month from my first "Cancer Free" tests.
Today I am alone, I am happy and I am enjoying Indian Summer.
This week last year I was just a few days away from being diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer, life was confusing, I new I was sick but couldn't get my Doctor to understand that........ This forced me to break off a 20+ year relationship with a man I knew somehow had my best interests at heart yet wasn't opening up his senses enough to see, to listen, to feel his patients deteriorating situation. After all I was always "The Strong One" right? ...right??
This year I am The Strong One in such a different way, this year I am strong for myself first. Being strong for myself first has made me substantially stronger for others. I am 1 month from my first "Cancer Free" tests.
Today I am alone, I am happy and I am enjoying Indian Summer.
Friday, May 18, 2012
Holy Moly - getting out of the Hospital
Sorry for the poor updating on my part! In fairness to my self..."Holy Shit" I've been knocked on my ass- Wow, I like to think of myself as a tough guy but this totally through me of my horse.
I was in the Hospital (Sloan Memorial Hospital York/67th) for about 10 days which was longer than expected. So I am "Out" of the Hospital for 2 1/2 week.
The surgery was major league if your not familiar - Ill describe it as "They split my torso from chest down took out a lot of stuff, re positioned what remained re stitched together the organs in a different pattern and BAM I was done.
There were some complications resulting in large loss of blood and also several Heart Arrhythmia episodes, so that's why I got held up for all the extra days.
Anyway everyone really everyone at the Hospital was great, friendly, caring, efficient. I was pretty uncomfortable the whole time and even I knew I was on heavy doses of drugs for pain etc.
So without a drawn out bunch of stories at 10am on a Sunday they poured me into a cab on York Avenue and off I went to my sanctuary of an apartment on York/92nd.
Getting home..........Getting Home....... don't ever underestimate what it means to get home! I felt so much better just getting into my own living room! I Cried like a baby (but I am known to do that) ...........probably the damn drugs?
I'm Home! Thank God- And thanks to all those who keep me in their thoughts!
I was in the Hospital (Sloan Memorial Hospital York/67th) for about 10 days which was longer than expected. So I am "Out" of the Hospital for 2 1/2 week.
The surgery was major league if your not familiar - Ill describe it as "They split my torso from chest down took out a lot of stuff, re positioned what remained re stitched together the organs in a different pattern and BAM I was done.
There were some complications resulting in large loss of blood and also several Heart Arrhythmia episodes, so that's why I got held up for all the extra days.
Anyway everyone really everyone at the Hospital was great, friendly, caring, efficient. I was pretty uncomfortable the whole time and even I knew I was on heavy doses of drugs for pain etc.
So without a drawn out bunch of stories at 10am on a Sunday they poured me into a cab on York Avenue and off I went to my sanctuary of an apartment on York/92nd.
Getting home..........Getting Home....... don't ever underestimate what it means to get home! I felt so much better just getting into my own living room! I Cried like a baby (but I am known to do that) ...........probably the damn drugs?
I'm Home! Thank God- And thanks to all those who keep me in their thoughts!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Today I Beat Cancer
Today I am Cancer Free ! Thanks to everyone for love and support! I will send details shorttly.
I love you!
I love you!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Il lfill in an update a soon as possible
I made it thru surgery, it's been hard as heck - I've been wiped out it all here's a pick from tonight '
Love & Prayers
Love & Prayers
Monday, April 16, 2012
We're on!
Waiting in pre-op, about to head to O.R. - Some good sedation starting to kick in.
I have decided to envision this as going for Liposuction - I am visualizing myself at 6' and 205lbs! SEXY!!!
And in my new post cancer life I will maintain that weight! Ummmmm SEXY!!
I'm leaving now- I love u all!!
I have decided to envision this as going for Liposuction - I am visualizing myself at 6' and 205lbs! SEXY!!!
And in my new post cancer life I will maintain that weight! Ummmmm SEXY!!
I'm leaving now- I love u all!!
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